I am writing this post from beautiful Park City, Utah, where I am on a girls trip with one of my sisters and my best friend. Those of you who know me well know that I am more or less addicted to my “to-do” list. In fact, I’ve written about it before—here.
Even when I go on vacation, I drag my checklist along and have certain routines that I adhere to—exercising, meditation, writing. There’s nothing inherently wrong with that, but I have a tendency to let it keep me from living fully in the moment. I may be sightseeing, sunning myself, hiking when I catch my mind drifting to what I “should” do next.
So I set a goal for myself on this trip—no lists, no I should, I must, or I need to. Don’t get me wrong. I brought my exercise clothes, my favorite meditation music, my laptop…just in case I wanted to do any of those things. But nothing goes on a to-do list. I’m only doing what strikes me in the moment.
It hasn’t been completely effortless. Saturday, I got thinking about today’s blog post and how I hadn’t written a word. I got out the computer and realized I was writing from a place of tension, from a “need to,” so I put the computer away and got out my book to read.
Later that evening, I glanced at my FitBit out of habit and saw that I hadn’t even reached 5,000 steps. I was tempted to get up and walk around, but I was really enjoying being curled up on the couch watching silly television shows and laughing with the girls, so I stayed where I was.
And you know what? The world didn’t stop spinning; my thighs aren’t any bigger; my blog is still there. (At least I think so.)
This morning I woke up really wanting to take a walk, so I did. Now, I’m sitting on the porch smelling the rain and listening to thunder (feels a lot like meditation). I found myself wanting to write about the experience, so I am writing a blog post out of desire, not necessity.
I’ve learned something about myself: I can survive an extended weekend without a list. I’m not ready to give up my my routines altogether, but an occasional vacation may be just the thing I need.
What about you? Do you have a to-do list? Do you take it on vacation with you?